How we Change 

We are a naturally evolving ever changing species. We start as these "perfect" tiny little creatures that are supposed to be everything that is perfect in the world and as we grow with a curiosity to learn about all that is around us we develop a personality all our own. The seasons change from winter to spring,… Continue reading How we Change 

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Today is

Today is my birthday. I'm 26 years old today. It's a day filled with "Happy Wishes" and "I Hope you have a..." A day filled with cards, gifts, and phone calls from loved ones. It's also a day spent in excruciating pain, a day spent turning off alarms reminding me of meds to be taken… Continue reading Today is


My being- and what it means to me when they say CRPS doesnt own them 

We often say crps doesn't own us but,  CRPS Is the monster under your bed.  It's the scary dream that keeps you up.  It's what no one talks about but you know, is there.  Crps beats you up when your down it punches you scathes you with burns of scolding grease and leaving you dead… Continue reading My being- and what it means to me when they say CRPS doesnt own them 


I’d like to say hello

I can see you staring at me.... it's fine, I don't mind. I know I look different. There's a bandage here with a tube coming out of there. I have wheels under my bum, that I can't even push. I wear a hat that covers all of my hair leaving to question... is there hair… Continue reading I’d like to say hello


Goodbye 2016

  Im a little different than everyone else. I can feel every sound aginst my skin as if the sound waves hug me with their pulsating beats. Its not really all that comforting though its unnerving, and feels like insects under your skin. But, the pain is worse, worse than everything. So when I try… Continue reading Goodbye 2016


Freezing Ocean of Pain

My ocean is treacherous, it is crazy. The waves are crashing wildly against my body. As if to say "no you can't, don't even try" But, I am brave. I fight back. I take a deep breath. I hope for calm. My ocean is dark, it is painful. I'm left with thoughts and emotions that are… Continue reading Freezing Ocean of Pain